Over the past month... Ive been putting this fake identity and that shit really fucking bothers me because I know that I am doing it. IDK about ya'll but I try to get in touch with my spiritual self ..and Im not going to lie ... I was losing my values but that's only because of the people I have been surrounding myself with recently. MY "FRIENDS" CLAIM THEY COME TO MY HOUSE TO VISIT ME BUT THE FIRST THING THEY DO IS GO TO THE KITCHEN TO SMOKE OR START PLAYING VIDEO GAMES... MY APT IS NOT A DORM ROOM.. The word "Friend" is very vague and has lost its context over time. To me the word "FRIEND" is a synonym for "ACQUAINTANCE". You call yourself my friend but do you really know me? Do you know where I came from... have I ever told you the story why its hard for me to open up to people? No right? WHY THE FUCK AM I OBSESSED WITH SNEAKERS? WHAT IS MY FAVORITE SNEAKER AND WHY? But since I wrote it on here you might be curious to find out. I ACT THE WAY I DO FOR SPECIFIC REASONS ... I TEST MY ACQUAINTANCES BEFORE I LET THEM BECOME MY REAL FRIENDS AND I OPEN UP. The people who I consider my real friends are like family and I will do anything for them just because I know for a fact they will do anything for me. Go ahead and talk shit because I didn't want to fuck that smut that ya'll be sharing... ya'll can be happy that you guys fucked over 20 girls ... if you consider that an accomplishment by all means congrats. I just feel bad for whoever you do end up taking seriously. Ya'll college niggas are trying to fuck around with all these young girls some of them still in HS. AND THEN YOU WANT TO GIVE ME GIRL ADVICE... LMFAO!!! That's the last thing I need from you... If its one thing I miss about North Jersey is the girls are more down to earth... and girls keep it real over here no need for that HS BS for real just be straightforward don't think that im going to take it the wrong way. People want to call me an asshole because I tell them to clean up after themselves or I make a rule to keep my house clean. THE FUCK YOU GETTING MAD AT ME FOR?... just because your used to having a dirty house doesn't mean that I am. On some real shit... I'm only saying this because everyone tells me this... I'm a really generous and nice person. People have been taking advantage of that .. ya'll want to see the real asshole come out ... AIGHT BET!! Everybody is a buddy when your budget's bigger.. One of the reasons I've been upset recently. Why the fuck do all of a sudden acquaintances that I have known for three years come out the blue ask me if they can come to my house. WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU? Ya'll never made any attempt to chill but now all of a sudden you want to start coming over everyday and using my house as a smoke house. MANNN!! GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE WITH THAT SHIT... One of the reasons why I'm banning smoking in my house... shit unlike other people I don't have to smoke, believe it or not I choose to. This is for all the females that be talking about me.. WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT ME? YOUR FUCKING MAD CAUSE I CUT YOU OFF OR I DON'T WANT TO GIVE YOU PLAY.. GET OVER IT... YOU FOUND OUT NO ONE IS EVER GOING TO TREAT YOU THE SAME .. THAT'S WHY YOUR FUCKING MAD!! what can I say? Jealous females always try to ruin good things. ALWAYS!!! Another thing.... Why do people try to get to know other people by asking other people?... WHY? THE EASIEST WAY TO GET TO KNOW SOMEONE IS BY ACTUALLY GETTING TO KNOW THEM. YOU KNOW BY TALKING TO THEM AND NOT CHECKING THEIR FACEBOOK UPDATES!!! You asking people you see me say hi to is not going to be a legit description of me or anyone for that matter.


In life there are always going to be people who criticize you, who say they are better than you or who try to bring you down. That's why I try not to lose my essence, lose myself or my identity by trying to be someone who I am not because at the end of the day only my accomplishments speak for themselves. I feel as though this was my best spring break yet. I learned a lot about myself.

Yall can keep talking cause I HONESTLY really dont give a fuck.

MY REAL FRIENDS, FAMILY AND CERTAIN FEMALES FROM MY PAST ARE ALWAYS GOING TO HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART.


If you read all of this I hope you became more enlightened about who I really am.